Hopes and dreams?

I recently discovered that i am not 25 anymore….(cue laugh)

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I am realizing that when I was 25 I had the whole world open- i could do anything.. I realized that it was all just at my finger tips…i had goals…those goals came true… It was good.

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I am now watching these 20 something year olds searching- they are searching for their dreams what they want to become what their goals are- they are finding their way and they are succeeding in ways that I never again will be able too. Not because i cant hit goals- its because I am not a YOUNG dreamer anyone- I am an OLDER one with different responsibilities a different stage in my life. I have evolved from what I was then I am more experienced. So being an older dreamer is not a downfall. Just different.

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I am not number one anymore. My “career” path and my goals they are not number one anymore- I don’t feel like the whole world is at my fingertips – I still feel like I can do anything now…..but within reason…I can do anything but instead of me and my goals coming first it will be my kids first.. i will always make all my decisions now around if it will be good for my family- not just me.

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Is this a bad thing? NO, not at all. It just means that I have been there and done that— my 20 year old goals. I have had the career the big dream the big goal I crushed it and then I all of a sudden became 37 years old….and again…a dreamer.

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Why cant I just stay in one place and be content with the many goals I slayed? Why cant I say I did it and then just stop and be done. Why do i have to keep searching my soul for the next thing I am going to do? Where is my contentment that I pray daily for?

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I am 37 years old. A mom of 4 and a wife. I can still dream- I can still have goals. They are just different now. Just because I am not 25 anymore does not mean i cant still think big things will happen. Just because i nailed all of my 25 year old goals does not mean I have to quit shooting for more.

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I have been told many of times to just stop- just be a mom – just stop and one day again you can focus on your goals that you might or might not have…but do I really have to just stop being me because i am a mom? Are you telling me that none of you have hopes and dreams…maybe not career dreams or writing a book dreams or anything like my dreams- but you still have dreams- right? Just because your a parent does not mean you dont have dreams….they might just look different than mine….am i too old for dreaming?

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Do you ever hit an age where you think- well this is my life? It is who I am and all I will ever be. Do you ever hit that age and that point of throwing in the towel on wanting more out of life? Of having no more goals?

Gosh, I kind of hope not…

I mean sure I am content with the way my life turned out- I absolutely am and I am embracing everyday and living in every moment and learning and growing the best i know how….but will i ever stop dreaming? Will I ever not have goals- no , I wont. That is who I was and who always hope to be….

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And you know what..

I love it!

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I may not know what lies ahead exactly – I may not know the plan but I know who does…and i know he will keep directing me to it.

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Enjoy the ride folks, it only goes around one time,

Xoxo- AD

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