My life of a lie😟

Let me tell you a story….

I was a group fitness instructor teaching up to 10 classes or more a week before I had kids and before I discovered my new lifestyle plan…

10 classes a week and i was always stressing about my weight- always 10-20 pounds heavier than I wanted to be. Always uncomfortable leading the class feeling insecure about myself. My issues mentally and physically were taking me down into a place that was not good. Almost to a point of a black hole no way out kind of feeling……killed myself with eating and working out and never felt good…never…

Every NEW YEAR was a new plan to get skinny for me. I would set unrealistic goals of losing 20 pounds in a month and quit smoking overnight. Yes, i was a group fitness instructor and i smoked. I drank diet coke. I ate sugar free,fat free, low carb everything- and i was the unhealthiest I had ever been. Each new year by February I was up 5 pounds and back on the smokin and diet cokin. It was a horrible cycle. I was not living authentic and it reflected on my outside. I was living a lie and it caused anxiety through the roof.

Then I had kids…..I realized I wanted to be healthy for them not for the pair of jeans i wanted to fit into. I wanted to show them health and to do that I had to be health. I had to do it the right way….and so I did.

I still teach classes but only one a week. I do a lot of my workouts right from home in an hour or less a day. I eat ALL food groups in moderation. I cook and eat to live, not live to eat. I teach my kids how to cook and eat and what health is. If I don’t show them the way they will grow up not knowing and I don’t want them to go through any phase of their life feeling the anxiety and depression and “black” hole I felt.

I do it for them. I do it for me. And you, my friend, you can too! janYOUary! lets do the damn THANG together! 2019!!

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