Get it girl!!

Here’s what…….Don’t be upset or annoyed at ladies going out of their comfort zone to build something… do you know why they are trying to “build” it?? 99 percent of the time they are busting their butts so they can stay home with their kids…and so they can have freedom…or maybe they feel like they don’t belong anywhere else so they want to start their own thing…..or maybe they are struggling to pay bills…..or maybe they just need something else…..maybe they TRULY believe in their product and just have such a passion to share…..maybe they don’t have the best education but they want to BE SOMETHING BETTER AND BIGGER than they were told they could be…..NO MATTER what it is and no matter who— please support these entrepreneurs, these strong women (and men)who are totally putting themselves out there – putting themselves in the fire of judgment and risking a LOT to be something that they know deep in their hearts that they can be. If you cant support its OK but if you are buying products—make up— protein shakes— energy drinks—- workout videos— shampoos—jewelry— undergarments—–kids bathing products—food— bags— clothes—- — or anything else that someone local is selling—help them out if you can ……encourage those who go out of their comfort zone because trust me it IS SO fricken scarey to do this and wonder “what people are thinking” – but I have learn to realize what other people are thinking of me is none of my business, really.

Pumpkin Muffins (healthier)!

Happy Fall Ya’llLove the fall season for the pumpkin and squash and all that goodness that comes with!!

Pumpkin Muffins (healthier style)

Ingredients:

4 oz Greek vanilla yogurt (or plain)

¼ C applesauce

1 C sugar (truvia baking blend)

2 eggs

1 C pumpkin

1 tsp vanilla extract

1 ¾ C carbiquik (or any flour you prefer)

½ tsp salt

Dash of cinnamon and pumpkin spice

Mix yogurt, applesauce and sugar well add one egg at a time and mix. Add the pumpkin and the vanilla to this wet mixture. In another bowl mix carbquick, cinnamon, pumpkin spice and salt- then add the wet mixture to this dry mix. Mix all together well.

Scoop out in muffin tins – bake 350 for 20 minutes (less or more just watch for golden tops)

I topped mine with a scoop of yogurt but you could do Halo top ice cream if prefer!

Container count: 2 of these muffins for a yellow container— if adding topping count ½ C of topping for another yellow!

YUMMY!!

Pizza soup!

I love soup! Three reasons…. 1.) itcan almost always be a healthy alternative and number two it’s super filling number.. three it keeps you warm in the fall and winter months that are yet to come. You can totally make any main dish into a soup somehow that is just what I did. In trying to eat healthy I really would love to eat some pizza right now which I could do but I decided instead to make pizza soup which is not my healthiest soup but it’s healthier than a big ole slab of the pie, right?
1lb ground turkey browned

1 large pepperoni (fresh and I chop it up myself)

1 cup of rices cauliflower

1 cup onion chopped

1 cup colored peppers chopped

3 cloves of garlic minced

1 cup chopped mushrooms

1 can sliced black olives

One zuchinni noodled (I use a spiralizer)

One jar low sugar pizza sauce

One jar of speghetti sauce (i canned my own if buying use low sugar organic)

One carton of low sodium broth
Place all veggies and garlic in pot and saute until tender with olive oil then add the meats the pasta sauce pizza sauce and the broth — u may need to add water as well until all veggies are covered….. bring to boil and then let simmer on low for about an hour. Enjoy with small amount of mozzarella cheese on top!!

Container count

1 1/2 C = one red one green 1/2 purple if having cheese then one blue!!

Chicken salad healthy with zuchinni patties

Healthy Chicken salad6-8 grilled chicken breast diced up

1/2 C plain Greek yogurt

1/4 C yogurt based ranch

1/4 C feta fill yogurt dressing

1/4 C organic dried cranberries

2 tbs mustard

1 cup chopped celery

3/4 cup chopped onion

Salt and pepper to taste

Mix this all up in large bowl and refrigerate- best to eat when chillled!

I eat this salad in whole wheat wraps or on my zuchinni cauliflower patties or just on a bed of greens.

Container count:

1 1/2 Cup — one red 1/2 green 1/2 orange
Zuchinni/Cauliflower patties

1 cup shredded zuchinni

One head of cauliflower

1/2 cup carbquik

1/2 cup shredded Parmesan cheese

2 eggs

1/4 C egg whites

Dash of each– basil, parsley, salt and pepper

Preheat oven 425 line two baking sheets with parchment paper..
Place cauliflower head in the microwave with a small amount of water in a microwave safe dish for eight minutes until somewhat tender lay that out a towel to dry also lay out your shredded zucchini on a towel to dry out. After vote both vegetables feel dry enough place in a large bowl and add all of your other ingredients and mix well

Now use a biscuit cutter to make the mold and take a few scoops of the mixture place into this mold and flatten out- bake on 425 for about 10 minute or until golden slightly and flip for another ten or golden.

I eat these instead of taco shells or bread or in place of wraps– you will most likely have to eat with a fork unless u bake it to crisp.

Have four of these for container count—

One green 1/4 blue (not enough egg count as a red ) enjoy warm- I also refrigerate or freeze these to store!

Any questions? Thank 

More than

I cant wait for FRIDAY!! On Fridays we go to the park…..why? Because we can! We can because I am setting my own hours and my own times to work—I am working, yes but I am doing something that I LOVE when I decide. I can do as little or as much as I want. Obviously if I want more I have to work more and if I need to take a few weeks to breath then I just back off. I will be as successful as the time and effort I put into my business. I want to enjoy every minute with these blessings- and I do! I for sure do- but I also want something for me, myself and I. Not even just something to sell or make money on or whatever – I mean something that makes me feel GOOD- makes ME FEEL GOOD about myself. Working out and eating healthy have been important to me for a long time now- but to be able to share this with others—it is such an amazing feeling. It really is. I love it! My life is not always roses and sunshine—don’t get me wrong—I struggle just like you do but it centers me—it grounds me… to have this thing- this thing of my own. This group I am running right now is killing it! They are—the success literally had me choked up today I am just over the moon at the success—not just weight loss success.. the confidence I am seeing and the helpfulness to one another—the sense of community we are feeling. It is so hard to explain but it is literally so good. It is so good for them and SO GOOD FOR ME! It can be lonely being home with just the kids—it can…. I love it but it can get a bit lonely so to have these women to talk to every day is just SO uplifting and so encouraging and makes me feel like I belong—in a sense- like I belong in this group and belong to something outside of just the everyday cooking and cleaning routine. **** If you want to do something just for you – reach out! Hop on board with me—I will show you ALL the ropes on how to make your own success- outside the walls of home life and work life success- a little nugget of your very own—your own thing that can better you and help better others. You don’t have to be as Over the top about it as I am – but once you succeed at it you will WANT TO BE! Asking questions is completely confidential—so it does NOT hurt to ask!! #morethanamom #morethanawife #morethanagirlfriend #morethanajob #yourownbiz (o and I can teach you how to use your cute workout gear and healthy food and shakes as a write off!! SCORE!!—why would you not do it just for that???)

My mind!

I am looking around my family room downstairs at pictures I have collected and framed. Loved one’s who have passed- grandparents mostly. Old wedding photo’s of them happily living life in their younger years. Pictures of them with their siblings. Pictures of our grandparents in the prime of their lives. Then a picture of my grandpa catches my eye with him holding his banjo. At all family gatherings my grandpa played his banjo. Him and his brothers actually had a band. They all were self taught. My mom told me stories that grandpa told her about their “practices” when they were younger. They would keep their parents up all night long “playing”- self teaching, really. Great grandma would never harp on them to quit she just let them go and let them “play.”What an amazing women- letting them make all that racket at night.That was his thing, Grandpa. His thing he loved – the banjo. It is what kept him really going….especially in his later years in life. He used to play for the nursing homes with his brothers- probably thinking he would never end up in one of those places. He had this – this thing that bettered him. This music thing that kept his mind going-…….until it didn’t.

I come from dementia and Alzheimer’s disease on both sides of my family. Both of my grandfathers had these horrific mind erasers at what I think was far too young of ages. I think about it a lot. I am pretty much given the golden ticket that I will end up with one of these. After all, these are two of the most hereditary diseases out there. So I try. I try to find ways to prevent. Try to find ways to keep my mind sharp- hoping that it will not be taken from me someday. My profession as a stylist isn’t the most mind consuming profession….yes it is artistic- which is great….but it doesn’t require a whole lot of reading/writing…things that really make you USE the mind. My grandfather was a barber….a good one too…great people person, loved his family and outdoor sports—he developed Alzheimer’s in his late 60’s, I believe. It was so aweful watching someone you love go through this feeling of just lost—being totally lost one minute than the next you are fine. Until finally the times of being totally fine are gone and you are just lost completely. They say that when your mind has been taken from you your soul leaves too- I hope this is true. I hope and just believe that this is true. That you are not just suffering in the body- that the soul has left and gone where it remains for eternity- with our Heavenly Father.

 I try to find ways to really make me think—things “they” say will be useful and helpful to me in preventing these diseases. Things like- crossword puzzles…reading…writing…playing cards/games….i have taken guitar lessons and try to stay with that….teaching choreographed classes helps and a lot of other things that I hope keep my mind on point.

Will this all really help though. I don’t know.

Do you have a thing? A thing that keeps ya going? Something that your kids can learn from you?

 Something that will make them nostalgic for you when you are long gone? Something that will keep your mind sharp as you age? Farming, reading, writing, gardening, music….something that keeps you ALIVE?. It doesn’t matter what it is- just something that makes YOU happy and makes YOU be YOU…..pass it down to your kids or nieces and nephews, the younger generation. Show them that there are so many hobbies and activities out there that you can really get into and can make you, you. Maybe you don’t have time for all that right now- ok – but know this……My Grandfather’s thing….his banjo thing….it makes me think of him all the time- it makes me sit back and just …..like, I can just hear him playing sometimes and I just sit there and MISS him so so much. What I would not give to have him play for me again….I was just a kid- I thought it was the norm to have your family gatherings involve singing and dancing. Now I look back and think, how lucky I was to have grown up with these different talents in my life that I could watch as I grew and want to become.

We mold the future of this earth and these kids with everything we do— yes we have to work and teach our kids good work ethics— but lets also teach them things that will keep our mind and bodies healthy too. Extra activities and hobbies that make us feel good- will make them feel good too.

Does anyone really know if they will develop one of these mind altering diseases? Does anyone know if me doing all of these things too prevent them will help? Does anyone know the future? Do we? No, I guess we don’t- but I am going to try. I am going to keep trying to do everything I can to keep my mind and my body sharp as a pin- so at least on my last days I can say to my kids that I did everything I could and hopefully they will do the same. I think when we all have a “thing” that makes us feel good it makes the world a better place to be in… we all have more confidence and we feel less anxious—so go—find your “thing” that keeps ya ticken…after all- we don’t know how much more ticken we have left to do. Don’t be afraid of your future—just know that when you were here on this earth you did the best you could and that is really enough. It really is.

IVF X 2

Exactly 4 years ago to the date this week my uterus felt like it was ripped out of me, stomped on and thrown back into my guts. It was a week much like this week- beautiful and almost summer like. The air was crisp and clean and people were excited for football and all the fun fall things ahead. Me, I was laying in bed – crying and worrying mostly. Worrying that if this procedure did not work- I was never going to have kids. I was never going to experience motherhood- Kevin was never going to experience fatherhood. And worse, I felt like if it didn’t work-It was me. My fault. Did I not do enough? Was I not healthy enough? Did I inject the medication wrong? Was I too stressed out? Were my eggs no good? Oh, man I can t even describe the amount of worry I felt. Yes I was a Christian and we are not supposed to worry because “tomorrow will worry for itself.” But I WAS WORRIED. I had a plan and this plan needed to work and if it didn’t I was surely going to lose my shit. God only gives you what you can handle— or this, God only gives you what HE can help you handle. Either way- he knew I couldn’t handle a negative test.I know this date very well. Not only because it was Labor Day weekend but also my cousin would be delivering her new baby girl this next week and I knew if I had a negative test I would never be able to step foot in that hospital room and see the new little one. I would not be able to take it. She gave birth that week—and at the hospital I was able to announce that I was pregnant. Very newly pregnant but I was. I had never been pregnant in my life- this was a true miracle.

Going through Invitro fertilization was not for the weak. I must say- if you have done it or plan to do it you must be strong. I remember multiple ultra sounds laying in the room bawling my eyes out at why I had to go through this? Why!?!?! The routine ultra sound check to see if your eggs were growing like they should be. I remember a time being afraid of needles. After being stuck every other day for multiple weeks I now can prep that vein even before the nurse steps foot into the room.

I was in secret with the process. Kevin and I told very, very few people. We weren’t ready to share. I was not ready. I was embarrassed and ashamed. My body was not doing what it was intended to do. Doing this in secret was literally the worse thing I think we could have done for us mentally….always hiding from people and making excuses on why we couldn’t be at events. It was exhausting!! I will tell you this though—It did bring US closer together as a couple. All we had was each other a lot of the time. Just us home – alone—A LOT! Me laying in bed feeling “sick” but really I was definitely depressed. I also wanted to tell no one because- if it didn’t work I didn’t want the awkward conversations with people.

It did work though! We delivered twin boys in April of 2014. So blessed! So very blessed. I still though was not really ready to speak out loud about our struggle. I was just still embarrassed and didn’t want the questions. I wasn’t ready. Sure we got the questions and the looks and the “do twins run in your family?” And we just would say… YEP they do. Kevin’s friend, at the time, even had the nerve to post on his page- “hey, my wife wants to know—are your twins natural?” Like, really?—my blood still boils talking about it a little—why would you EVER post that question – number 1. Number 2—are they natural? Really,? No, they are fake kids——–I can assure you after throwing up for 18 weeks and carrying these 6 pounders in my belly for 36 weeks and 5 days strong— I can assure you brotha- these babies are real. I kind of feel sorry for that guy because I REAMED HIS ASS for asking this question. Now looking back I guess I could have handled the situation better. I don’t think they talk anymore – hmm?

Listen, I know that people who have not dealt with fertility issues don’t know what is wrong and right to say. I will give you advice— if you have to question it in your heart if it is appropriate or not—THEN JUST DON’T SAY IT. I don’t care if its your best friend- your daughter – or your daughters best friend….JUST DON’T. Don’t ask it unless they seem ready and open to discuss…ok? Now, on another note—I am ready and open. My next round of IVF… I WAS READY— I mean I was a soldier!! Yup! I knew what to do and when to do it…. I did all my own shots and drove my own butt to the doctors appointments, with company sometimes–(they were like 2 ½ hours away). I had to be this way—I had two baby boys at home that needed to be cared for and a husband who worked crazy hours. I had to get tough and be tough. I told everyone who would listen what we were going through so I could ask for help—we needed it. It wasn’t about me anymore- it was about them. I needed to get through this without it effecting them negatively in any way. I did too- I really rocked this round of Ivf. I can honestly say that. I made it through—my body made it through. Long story short….. doctor says how many eggs you want to put it- KEVIN says ONE!! We have twins at home. Ok, fine—you have a 25 % chance of this working—Doctor recommends doing 2 eggs than chances go up to 60 percent. Kevin says NO- doctor says you will NOT get twins again—I can almost promise you this… Kevin says “doctor, one egg.” I am just going with whatever because I had to beg to do this again so soon anyway, right. Then the WEEK before the procedure is going to go through- kevin says—“lets just do 2.” I am like, OK- that is literally all I said – I didn’t want him to change his mind because I knew with one egg in the odds were against us—so 2 it was. 6 week later… ultra sound appointment—I know what to look for- I see it – I see TWO sacs…..kevin has no clue until nurse says—“o its twins!!” Me and kevin look at eachother – nurse says “are you ok?” I say—well, we have twins at home, they are 17 months old. Nurse says- “oh.”—kevin leaves the room nurse says “is he ok?” I say—“not sure.” Dead silence the entire ride home…the whole night almost. Now, we wouldn’t have it any other way.

So, there it is the story of our family.

– If you or someone you know is struggling with infertility and want to chat- please do reach out. I wish I had known someone to talk with and felt comfortable to talk about it going through. I think it would have been much easier the first round if I had that and if I had felt more comfortable. There is nothing wrong with you……this is the hand you were given and you can get through this. I know all too well. I cant make it all better but I can sure as hell try.:)